Parachutes

Cash saved for the unexpected broken tooth, car repair, the day the central heating quits. Water jugs and food to last the outage, snowstorm, hurricane. Go-bag with important papers. Plan to retire, insurance for wind, flood, fire, earthquake. That’s been my...

Just started working again—

Just started working again— A coworker cut his arm. He laughed, “Horizontal for attention, Vertical for results?” Apparently this was a saying. “Exactly,” I said. It was August, we were hanging Insulation in a crawlspace, But how lucky Was I to be wearing Two...
Dark-haired woman facing ocean on a gray day, seen from behind, for Survivor Lit, a literary magazine for sexual assault survivors.

Atlantis

I made the mistake of telling my therapist about the molestations, the assault, the rapes, and she had the audacity to ask me how I feel, and now I have this caldera of sadness in my throat, this...
Black and white image of woman whose face cannot be seen, sipping from a mug in a kitchen; her hand is veiny and she seems tense, for Survivor Lit, a literary magazine for sexual assault survivors.

A woman’s place

Into the mouths of babes, the bottomless craw of a needy child; they cluster at my hip, wanting more. Here, I pay and pay for sins I did not commit. Not in this house, this generation. But fat must be rendered. The...
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#MeToo

what I mean is, I said no to my ex for the first time. I said no. I said no. I said no fucking way you stupid piece of shit. I said no nicely. I meant it. I said no....
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Wooden church pews

The church is empty except Daddy and me
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Lost and found

Where to find peace in the everyday chaos?
silhouette of a girl representing shame photo by Kevin Jesus Horacio

Don’t you dare tell me he’s a good man

I get to hear my family talk about how the man who tried to rape me as a child and taunted me about it in college is a good man.
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Listening, a litany

The whisper of safety is just out of reach, no matter how hard I strain to listen.
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Overcoming the werewolf 

My dark feminine will one day devour you.

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