You murdered my son,
Abuser.
Though breath still trickles out closed lips,
he does not live.
The twelve years since his disappearance
drag by like a sea anchor pulled from deep waters.
I wonder how he’s aged,
if the rage in him settled.
His polluted mind and body cannot withstand humanity
so he hides
within his tortured self.
He abandons family, discards people,
because you trashed his childhood, his manhood.
His shame blankets his eyes.
His blame covers the universe.
You cut deep in my heart, Self-Seeker.
My body appears whole but it is hollow.
I forever weep.
I forgive you solely because you took your life by suicide
So, I hide
behind the joy,
pleasured by the gratification,
Relieved, another child will not be harmed.
You robbed the world,
you ignorant fool,
of a gifted, caring human.
A tragic loss.
Inescapable.
The Universe forgives you only because you must answer to the planet.
This frees me
from punishing you.
Photo by Joël in ‘t Veld on Unsplash
